To answer your questions, “What does dementia feel like – does it hurt?” I want you to think back on some of the places we went.
When we went to the fun house with all the mirrors everything was funny looking and out of proportion. Although we could tell it was us, it just didn’t look right.
At the big corn maze, we got all turned around and every path looked the same. At first it was fun, but when we thought we would never get out – it was really scary.
After going around & around & around 30 times or so on the “Twister” we couldn’t walk straight and everything was spinning. It was difficult not to run into things.
When you saw ‘Maleficent” in 3D, you told me how real it seemed. When you took the glasses off you could still make it out, but it was all fuzzy and gave you a headache.
My heart was saddened to hear you cry when your classmate unfriended you on FB. In our conversation, you were angry, sad, and frustrated all at the same time.
Dementia is kind of like a really bad experience doing all these things at once. If you take all these feelings and put them together at one time, that is how dementia feels on a bad day.
- Life seems distorted and out of proportion – things just don’t look right.
- I feel trapped in a maze of wacky mirrors – and can’t figure out which way to turn.
- My surroundings seem off balance – it’s difficult not to run into things, drop them or knock them over.
- Everything seems out of focus – my whole world seems fuzzy and sometimes causes a headache.
- My emotions take control – I am frustrated, sad and angry all at the same time.
All these feelings can be mixed together for a few hours or a few days. You ask; “Does it hurt?” Mostly it hurts inside, because I can’t accomplish the things I want to and I know it is not going to get better. But right now is a good moment. So today, for this good moment – – however long it may last, we are going to laugh, take pictures and count our blessing for every moment we can share.”
Love & Laughter, Laurie
Written By Laurie Scherrer
© Copyright 2015 Laurie Scherrer